My first anxiety attack happened at work and at the time i didn’t know what it was. My chest tightened up and no matter how many deep breaths i took it never felt enough, like i was not getting enough oxygen which then makes you start breathing faster and faster which just makes it worse. i really thought it was some kind of heart attack, my heart was beating so fast and my whole body began shaking. After that anxiety attack my whole body would tingle which felt very odd. This happened a few times before i found out what it really was.

Luckily for me our workplace had the free doctor check ups going and when i had mine done the lady had to do my blood pressure 3 times before she referred me to an actual doctor as it was way too high. With pressure from my mum i reluctantly went to see a doctor, He took my blood pressure as well and then asked me questions about anxiety attacks which helped me realise what i was having for the past couple months were that and not any heart problems. With that information he gave me some xanax and sent me on my way (which is not what a doctor should really do now)

Taking my first xanax felt amazing, i had never felt so relaxed and at ease, i didn’t have a care in the world and this is what i thought was a normal feeling for people everyday. At this point is when i hurt my back resulting in sciatic nerve pain which i wouldn’t wish upon anyone.

In my next chapter ill describe how important it is to find the right doctor and discuss more into the drugs i was given for my anxiety and depression and also the drugs i had for my back pain.

Hi everyone and welcome to my blog.

My name is Scott and iv’e decided to share my experiences and journey through depression and anxiety from when it all started to how im dealing with it now. I know alot of people out there are just like me and dealing with it alone. What i hope is this gives you the strength to get the help and make your way out of that dark place.

Unfortunately Depression and anxiety still has a stigma attached to it but we have come a long way with more people coming out about it and the great website beyondblue.org. But alot of people (me included) would stay silent and see it as a weakness and assume people will tell me to ‘man up’ or ‘grow up’, i never considered it to be a mental illness just something that everyone deals with until i discovered they dont. I would get anxious over anything, from going to work to just driving down to put some petrol in my car, it would get to a point where i couldn’t imagine living like this forever. Enter the depression……………….

So this is the beginning of how it began for me and i plan to go through all my steps and experiences along the way from the worst moments to the good moments and how i deal with it on a daily basis.