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anxiety, depression, drugs, health, help, mental health, wellness, xanax
Finding a doctor that takes this seriously is half the battle. As mentioned in my previous post i had hurt my back badly, this got to a point that i went to the doctors and he gave me diazepam (which is like xanax) and some pain killers. Again these did not help in the long run.
My back was on and off with pain now and i was being ignorant and not getting it looked at properly. I turned my attention back to my anxiety by finding a better doctor who takes it seriously, He drew up a mental plan and we began with some drugs to help me out. This point i was put onto the popular one Zoloft, and for bad episodes i was given xanax. I was also given epilim but wasn’t keen in taking them as well with everything else.
The zoloft came with side effects, within a week of being on them i wasn’t really eating i felt down and every morning id wake up feeling really anxious so i was getting very little sleep. with this i was taking xanax every day and every morning id get so anxious that id throw up. After about a month of this my body started to get used to this and i was upped my dosage of Zoloft. I never felt any different and felt like it was a waste of time but i persisted.
I got a lucky break and got a new job and was feeling really happy until i did my back again resulting in me going to the hospital where a new drug became my friend. I was bed ridden, when i tried to get up and walk the pain was so bad i would feel instantly sick and since i had started a new job i had to get back ASAP. I was back to work within a week still in pain but taking strong pain killers everyday. most days were just a blur, taking codeine painkillers and xanax slowed everything down it felt like i had longer time to think but only took the slight edge off the pain. that’s when i thought i cant live with this pain forever. Feelings disappeared and i felt like an empty shell. I didn’t care about my own safety or if anything bad happened to me. After a few months my back pain wasn’t as bad and i wanted to put weight back on again but i was never hungry and still didn’t feel well and this led to a new drug…………………….
Beginning of a new drug………………….. Please follow and like my blog, in my next entry ill discuss what the next drug was and continue the downward spiral.
Unhappy uprise 
I can completely relate to your struggle. My husband and I both suffer from anxiety–his manifesting itself with frequent panic attacks and mine with constant generalized and social anxiety and the occasional panic attack thrown in.
My husband experienced his first panic attack while we were on our honeymoon. It lasted two days, and I drove him 10 hours home three days into our ten day honeymoon. He had no idea what was going on, thought he was going crazy, etc. To be honest, it went on for several days after he returned home as well. That was four years ago, and since then, we’ve somewhat learned the ropes, so to speak. The other good news is, we have great support in each other.
More than anything, I stress the importance of having someone who knows what you’re going through to talk to. Anyone who’s never experienced it simply can’t fathom how helpless you are in the situation. I’ve heard things like, “Just calm down,” “Stop breathing so fast,” “Why are you freaking out? Nothing happened,” “If you know it’s a panic attack, why are you still freaking out?” and the list goes on and on.
We’ve also been very lucky to find a Dr. who has worked with us to find the right medication combinations. I also live with chronic depression, which only triggers my anxiety and vice versa, I’m prescribed Celexa, Xanax, and Adderall. My husband is only prescribed Xanax. Coincidentally, I also have a back injury that’s accompanied by sciatic nerve damage. Seems like we have a bit in common. 🙂
Please feel free to follow me and get/keep in touch anytime. I’m just getting this site up and running, but I will be blogging about these issues as well.
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to find someone going through the same thing had always felt impossible but also someone with back problems aswell. its always so hard to explain the sciatic back pain you have to have it to really understand it. i really hope you and your husband are doing well and look forward to chatting more and reading your blog 🙂
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Oh yes, I understand the sciatic pain very well. The shooting pains down the outside of your legs and hips that can actually make your knees feel like they’re on fire. The almost constant aching in your hips and lower back. The need to raise your legs, squat, or sit down when you stand for longer than five minutes. Waking up with aching legs. Mhmm. I’m right there with you….. And aside from that, we are doing pretty good, as I hope you are as well. Thank you. 🙂
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stop making me re live it haha there was no way to stop the aching, i used to try a constrictive bandage around my thigh which kinda felt like it worked even though obviously it didnt. acupuncture and chiropractor was the key for me. but now you are always careful and making sure you dont do it again.
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I pray that you eventually find solace and peace. I too can relate because my mother suffered from a job injury a few years ago. She has suffered bouts of depression and anxiety from the pain and lack of concern from doctors. She’s now on prazosin, clonazepam, escitalopram, hydroxyzine, and vit d but still going through side effects like insomnia, nausea, forgetfulness and slowfulness. I am searching for natural alternatives because no one should have to get medicine to counteract the side effects of another medicine. Be encouraged.
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exactly right, why would you need to take a drug to counteract the other drug. all the best to your mother, she is not alone. if its back related i highly recommend acupuncture, i had this plus a chiropractor and it made a huge difference.
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